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I'm drunk. Somebody love me.

Ah yes. Ye olde drunken late night LiveJournal update.

There's a boy. It seems like there's always a boy. But they all need nicknames and this one will be Star Hipster.

Hipster and I hooked up last weekend. A somewhat random, drunken, mutual rebound kinda thing.

Hipster is surly and moody and I wonder that I'm reading too much into his moods, but tonight ... tonight just felt like he wanted to be anywhere but sitting next to me. And after two drinks, he went home.

Last weekend there was a lot of talk ... future plans to hook up, that sort of thing. So far this week he's blown off the plans we made (and the plans were his fucking idea in the first place) and it's got me hearkening back to H.W.S.R.N. and wondering if I'm repeating the same cycle again and again and again.

Is anybody out there?

Am I reading too much into this? Am I just feeling drunk and needy? What the fuck, man?


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Oct. 28th, 2004 12:50 am (UTC)
OH dear. You might be reading too much into this. You'll have to wait and see and not let things get to you too much. I know, easier said than done, and alcohol sometimes has this wonderful way of making mountains out of molehills as well. Good luck and hope you don't feel too bad today. It seems to be a week for going out and getting pissed..speaking from own personal experience here.
Oct. 28th, 2004 10:37 am (UTC)
The cats woke me up yowling for food at just about the same time as my headache was in full swing. It's subsided some, but I still feel like crap.

Mountains out of molehills, eh? You might be on to something there ...
Oct. 28th, 2004 06:58 am (UTC)
god, that is soooo annoying, "Hi, I have these great plans!"...."opps, can't make it".

I was just thinking about this cuz I'm going to a dance workshop & I know Ms. coming out will be there and coming out (to annoy me).

To me, it's just damn weird & egotistical & yes, you might want to stay away. I mean city folk and bad communication rules seem the thing...and people seem to expect others just to forgive them....it's just weird ego to me....like people who get upset that you never call them when they don't call you back.

It's just annoying...I suspect you are like me in one aspect - the way we read what our instint tells us. Instinct says "something smells fishy in Denmark", instead of our rational brain saying "danger warning, change the situation", our emotions run in "yelling "something is wrong with me!!! or "somebody else doesn't like me!"

I vote for repeating pattern...but I could be wrong
Oct. 28th, 2004 10:41 am (UTC)
Well, to be fair, the plans were more along the lines of "let's get together -- call me when you wake up" than "meet me at the coffee shop at noon" -- he blew off plans but at least he didn't stand me up, you know?

I confronted him about it that night at work, tried to explain that I was coming off of a year of H.W.S.R.N. constantly making and then canceling plans, that it was just rubbing me the wrong way right now, but he just didn't seem to get it.

I was fumbling for words, said I felt like an idiot, and Hipster replied "You could never be an idiot." It's compliments like that that keep me coming back.

I think I sent him a late night drunken email (I know I sent one to H.W.S.R.N. -- oops). We'll see if there are consequences to pay at work tonight.
Oct. 28th, 2004 02:21 pm (UTC)
heh. Isn't that the way.

I do like that enthusiastic married lady...I guess I'm old fashioned
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