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Yesterday was intense, and ended with a long, emotional, in-depth and wholly unexpected conversation.

A lot of moments from that talk are percolating inside my brain, but there's one in particular that keeps jumping out at me:

I was crying, upset, feeling very vulnerable and said something along the lines of "I keep turning to my friends for help, but it feels like nobody's helping me." Once I said it, though, I realized (and said) the even sadder truth: that none of my friends are able to help me because they're all in as much trouble as I am.

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suewan
Aug. 23rd, 2004 07:29 am (UTC)
Hope, I think we all feel vulnerable and very much alone at times. It is a horrible feeling, it really is. But I can say with my hand on my heart, that I'm feeling pretty ok about my life at present. Most of the anxiety I feel at present is mainly concerned with returning to university at the end of September. I guess my main problem is that I don't adjust to change quickly enough! I hope things feel a bit better today, I really do. Look after yourself.
lurpy
Aug. 23rd, 2004 09:13 pm (UTC)
Everyone feels that way. I had all of these plans and then my truck dies. I have no apartment left after this week in Pittsburgh and nobody really feels like helping me do anything I need to do. I explain my problems to my friends and all EVERYONE says is, "that sucks". At first, this really pissed me off.... like, I expect them to be able to do or say something that will make it all better but they can't.

All we can do is talk it out. I don't expect anyone to say anything back anymore... I just want to hear my thoughts out loud as I'm speaking them to someone.

And along those same lines, I seriously couldn't hear anything you were saying when you called me. You were talking so quietly and I was in a car so I couldn't get away. I hope all is better... or getting better.
hopita
Aug. 23rd, 2004 10:52 pm (UTC)
I hope you don't think my post was a criticism of you when I called yesterday -- it really was meant in a much broader sense (and, in large part, in a work-related way: when I made the original comment, a lot of what I was thinking was "how is it that EVERYONE knows I'm looking for a job but NO ONE -- save letsrunawaybaby, who I've never actually met in person -- has offered me any sort of help?").

I hadn't heard most of your apartment-related problems, but if I can help, I will. I work Tuesday and Wednesday but am otherwise free.
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