Hopita (hopita) wrote,
Hopita
hopita

And the word of the day is "angst."

For a once I'm actually going to copy down what I was writing in my actual paper journal and post it online.

I think it is safe to say that I'm sliding off of my trolley tracks. Nevertheless, here goes:

"...Why do the midsections of my journals always seem to be filled with angst? Why do I usually feel like I'm relegated to the periphery of things? Why is Sarah pregnant and not me? Why, for that matter, is [woman with a secret pregnancy that she wants to remain a secret] pregnant but not me? Why hasn't Mac called me back to the Co-op for a second interview? Why do I look so godawful unattractive? Why is it so hard for people to connect?"
Tags: angst, body image, cheychey79, eefc, journals, pregnancy, self-esteem
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