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Mar. 13th, 2004 06:18 am (UTC)
I'll erase tis in the morning
I, anoymous, have no idea what I wrote...oh it's morning & I who does not drink, am drunk & passing out

I am in a world where I don’t belong. No limping allowed except on the ramp in the front door. I like to be friendly with neighbors but these are annoying neighbors to be friendly with. But I am polite and they are helpful. But they do not fetch my laundry that I left all night in the dryer because my leg hurts & it’s too cold to get it.
They have their problems. Everyone has their problems. Hope is in Pittsburgh but maybe there is no hope here, My neighbor on the left started shouting, “get off me, get off me!” I listened through thhe walls. It sounded like a record played a bit too loud. The kind of thing that gets a polite knock, “excuse me, could you turn down your music a bit, it’s 3 am and I’m trying to sleep.” I’ve never seen the women. She sounded like Merideth Brooks. Sexy. Bitch. “get off me”. A loud thud & I grew concerned but it was the door slam. None of my business.Or is it?
I do not drink because my father & sister are alcoholics so I might be one too. But I don’t crave being drunk or like alcohol. I like ice cream much better. I am an ice cream a holic. But now I am drunk . I can feel the red wine making mey hand fall on the desdk soon at 5:30 am. My sausage and cheese is delicious & I am wrritoing like I know how to write best. Not the academic way, but the words slide from my cunt and my breasts and my privates. I am ruthless. I am without Ruth.I eat no candy bars and I am without a biblical chaptr. I am not in the story of Ruth.
I am trying to say that I dreamt of learning, re-learning to talkto the moon after K pointed out that my Welcome mat was perfect for where I am. Sea shells & waves & lighthouses. Not like Hawaii. But sea gulls & fog horns. A girl told me the best coffee place was the lighthouse. Yes. I love light houses. K is not pretty, not even attractive, but I dream of fucking here against a wall like Nina fucked me.My first marriage Ha!
My mouth is salty from wine & salami. Mia gad a salty mouth. She wasn’t murdered for her salty mouth. She was murdered for being young & pretty & out at night by a god damned freak of nature! Why do so many women feel like freaks of nature when thry haven’t killed anyone. Why did I feel like such a freak of nature for existing. Do I feel llike a freak of nature? No. Ifeel lots of pain though. Ow Ow Ow is what I say & think & feel. It hurts just to sit. But my mother loves me & I am semi-famous. OK. Enough.
I can talk to the moon. What is it saying? Go to bed. There are boxes on my bed. Make love to K. Tell A-bitch she is an excellent writer. Censor the next sentence. Blank.
The moon is telling mr to write if I have to drink a gallon of wine a night. (I wion’t) It is saying people are put on the planet for a reason & it is to not murder anyone, no one is meant to kill anyone. No rape , that is not why we are here.Our purpose is to smile regardless if we are black or married. The Christians are spitting on the body of Christ. They are not in love with life & have offended God & god will hurt them for hurting others. That’s the way God is. I do noy have to worry.I do not have to hate. I just I just have to do my job, and I am failing at my task but I will improve. God wouldn’t have made women with large breast & women who wanted to suck them like little babies if it was not perfect///I don’t believe in God but it does not matter. This is a perfect world but would be better if men wouldn’t ride my neighbor when she didn’t like it.

Listen to the moon. Listen to yourself
Mar. 13th, 2004 12:06 pm (UTC)
If I had my way, I'd sleep all day long, then sit around on my ass all night eating junk food and watching TV.
Mar. 13th, 2004 04:52 pm (UTC)
Im really into dirty sex and really dirty stuff turns me on. I act conservative about things, but in reality i want her to call me "daddy" more in bed, and i want to kiss everyone i know. i committed a lot of crimes in highschool, a lot, a lot of petty crimes. i was wanted twice on the "crime stoppers" for petty crap teenagers do: throwing stuff off an over pass, drunk driving hit a car and run- kinda things. a lot of my clothes are stolen.
Mar. 13th, 2004 11:11 pm (UTC)
Mar. 17th, 2004 02:23 pm (UTC)
I have nearly had sex with someone who over 20 years older than me. When I was a teenager, I was the teenager from hell who out every weekend doing all those things that give parents nightmares! I have memories of my life that still make me shudder and think was that me? I have had numerous one stands when I was much younger and never felt guilty about it. I also have had several overlaps in relationships when one wasn't quite finished when I would embark on a new one. I deliberately don't answer my phone or carry my mobile with me when I know I should.
Apr. 2nd, 2004 11:34 am (UTC)
I always look through peoples bathroom medicine cabinets when im at parties.
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