Be kind to yourself. It's ok. This is a really rough time, and you're doing your best. :)

At the risk of sounding like an enabler, and notwithstanding the fact that smoking is always destructive, no matter how little one smokes:

I've been an on-and-off smoker for a number of years (mercifully I've never felt like it was an addiction or compulsion). Last summer, when I was studying for the bar exam, I made a conscious decision to take up smoking to relieve stress. Weird, but true. I was hoping that it would help keep me from my compulsive emotional eating, which it didn't, but it took the edge off in other ways. And since I had made the decision that my smoking would be limited in time and scope, I had ownership over it, which made it a lot easier to stop afterward.

I don't know whether this helps any, but for what it's worth, I agree that beating yourself up is futile at best. Smoking is by far the least of many other evils, and you will stop smoking again.

Without a doubt.

Keep us posted on how you are - we're here to help in whatever way we can.

Hang in. Take deep breaths (and not just when you're smoking).

Hope,

Sorry to hear you'e smoking again. You *can* quit. As a matter of fact, you were one of several quitters that helped me decide I was ready to quit.

I'm doing a *lot* for baking at home these days instead of smoking. I have *tons* of cookies (and bread, etc). Made biscotti this morning. Chocolate cookies and fudge tommorrow. Come get some. They're homeade, and free.

--Alan

Hope, giving up smoking is so hard. I started smoking foolishly again after getting post-natal depression. I need a crutch of some description to get me through that hell! So, please don't beat yourself up! There's far worse things, trust me. And I haven't smoked for nearly 5 years now! I just woke up one day and quit. Now, is probably not the best time to quit...