Man, I can't sleep at all tonight. I've been trying and trying and now, at 5:30 in the morning, it seems kind of pointless to keep up the charade. I just can't seem to turn my brain off. Don't even ask me how I'm planning on making it through a day of work.

Yesterday I seemed to be at my lowest, and he actually contacted me, and said some really nice things. It made me cry. Anjee and Liz said some really nice things too, and they were deeply appreciated.