Unfortunately, I'm also still smoking the clove cigarettes, which was a bad, bad can of worms for me to have opened. I've got to learn this fucking lesson already!
Today I'm mostly just ... sad. I don't know what's going on. I don't know what's going to happen. I feel like a complete idiot for a whole pile of reasons, not the least of which is that I made an ass of myself at work. I seriously can't keep letting that happen. Of course, the flipside of that is that it sometimes sucks that I don't work in an environment where there's room to have a weepy day -- when you deal with the public, you've got to be able to deal with the public, you know?
So shouts out to Si, who always makes me smoothies and hugs me when I'm sad, to n0thingman, who sat on the phone with me and completely understood everything, and to everyone who responded yesterday with such kind words. It's always kind of fascinated me that when I post relationship stuff, be it happiness or sadness, that every single respondent is always a woman. I don't really know why that happens, but it does.