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Something.

I don't know what to say, but I feel like I should say something.

It's been a hard weekend, full of feelings of hopelessness.

It's their wedding anniversary. And I don't think he's ever going to leave.

I don't want to be alone, but, sitting in my bed, alone, at 4:00 am, I was acutely aware of the fact that I am.

I'm sick of being a dirty little secret.

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ratphooey
Aug. 30th, 2009 03:57 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry.

What would he do if you asked him to?
hopita
Aug. 30th, 2009 04:06 pm (UTC)
I don't know how to answer that.

I feel like I have asked for what I need (him to tell his shrink, him to tell his wife, him to leave his wife ...) and he's just not ready yet.

I told him I felt like I needed to take a step back because I was afraid I was going to get really hurt. He didn't try to talk me out of it. That's not a good sign.
ratphooey
Aug. 30th, 2009 04:19 pm (UTC)
No, it's not.

I think it's too late to not get really hurt.
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